When I Grow Up

I remember once when my English teacher asked me, "What is your ambition?".. Uh?

Actually, the question is just a way for the teacher to get the entire class's attention into writing essays, one day. So basically, the teacher wants the students to write an essay merely about what do you want to be when you grow up.... And, believe it or not, I really need to cracked my head at that time, just to find out what is mine, as there's not even a single one!

However, I'm surprise to find that the other students can easily discover about theirs, but not me... They even mentioned that it's their ambitions or passions to be a doctor, engineer, architect, pilot, policeman, cooking chef, businessman and so on..., but when it comes to me, my brain get stuck!

But, way back then, I only knew I had few of my aunties were nurses, and the rest with most of my uncles were teachers.., so meaning that my whole families and relatives were meant to be teachers... Haha!.. And, the funny thing is that, I ended up writing an assay about just being a nurse!?.. Aa?

Anyway, that was a very long time ago when I was in primary school. But, if it happened that if somebody is asking me the same thing today, I'm likely still giving you the same answer... "No, there's still not a single one, yet!".. But again, the funny thing is, I turned out being a nurse myself!.., even until today!

We often heard about those people whom to have their ambitions or passions in a certain thing, that eventually has turned their passions into something they can work onto or as their job is wonderful. But, I think, not everyone is fortunate enough to have had that one opportunity as those mentioned, and they ended up into something different, instead. But, it's still pretty good, though!

Anything can happen and, it happened to me too. To be honest, I truly do not know what is to be a nurse all about until I become one myself. But, from the very beginning until today, there're so many things that I've gone through and, to my surprise, it teaches me about lots of things in life and, it even hit me many times!.. It makes me learn and appreciate life, not just be a nurse.

To be more specific, I'm a critical care nurse. Apart from just being on duty or work, I have had worries or fears in certain situations, and I have had feeling of empathy or tears towards ill or dying circumstances and so forth.., but all of these feelings are normal regardless you want to accept it or not. All of these life events have been always be a part of me, my daily life routine.

As for me, my job will never be my passion, not my ambition either too. But, I would rather take it as one of my responsibility and to serve others in need. Because, I only know one thing that in everything I do, I do it entirely only for Him, the One up above, and not humans.

Now, you may be thinking or wondering why am I telling you all these? Well, actually I really don't know!.. :)

It just happened that my mind, out of the blue, had these funny thoughts came by after one of my colleague's friend have shared a video, actually, that showed a little bit of insights into working in a critical care setting which eventually has bring me all the flashbacks of my own experience as well, and believe me, it's absolutely almost the same!

However, it's just that the (working) surroundings has changed pretty a lot due to the Covid-19, where there're times that you'll get to see few "astronauts" around with those who wearing normal scrub suits... :)

Anyway, no worries. It's the new normal looks nowadays. And, as to what as many of us may have think of right now.., well yes, we might be as well, can't go back.

So, thanks to the one friend who kindly share the video, and it does really gives me the feeling of warm at heart and grateful. And again, thank you so much!