Silence In The Night

It's heavy rain outside now... And it's dark... I'm just sitting near the window and looking outside into the street... Alone...

Then, suddenly my house blackout! Immediately my room turned into complete darkness. "Yaaaa....".

But then after a while, I could only see dim lights coming from the street through my window. For a moment, I could feel just silence. I could only hear the rain tapping heavily onto my window glass with the sound of thunder from afar that come and go, and come again...

In my room, it starts to feel cold now... I grabbed my blanket on my bed just at the side of me and wrapped it all around me. I seated again at my window and gazing outside into the street. I see no people walking outside. I only see lights coming from vehicles on the road and traffic lights.

In the midst of the quiet and silence moment, I don't know why I come to feel suddenly calm, warm, serene and peaceful in mind. Then, my mind begin to wander...

Then, it goes...

I completed my school and studies, then stepped into the outside world, for the very first time in my life, away from my families and friends, and my hometown. This was the time, I began to live all by myself, surrounded by just friends and colleagues and strangers. All I knew was learned to be independent. Well yes, I did sometimes flew back home to be with my family and friends, then again away...

In the outside world, I've been working in private healthcare in all the years that have made such great influences and impacts onto my being all together. I've had the experiences, the lifestyles, the people, the social life, the food, the cultures, the events or happenings, and almost anything in life.

I've had working in new or different work environments that led me to be more responsible, self-discipline and might always be physically, mentally and spiritually prepared, as this was the time when I started to work in shift duties, 7 hours or 10 hours shift in a day.

Along the way, I met people who come and go. Making new friends were vulnerable and acceptable. There were friends that sticking together and some were not. But yes, that was normal. You got to know them well, as they were too got to know you well. And try to kept in touch always if possible.

Hence, these were all the things or life events that happened throughout our lives. It could be something good or bad. Happy or sad. Fun or bore. Stress or calm. Worry or peace. Healthy or sick. Strong or weak. Win or lose... All were the ups and downs of life.

We learned in all things. We were learning all the time...

As for myself, what I learned the most was all about me, my purpose in life. And, it didn't just end. It kept on moving and I'm learning all the way...

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Suddenly, my room becomes bright! I startled for a while... "Oh! The electricity is back!". I almost jumped.

Then, I realised the rain has been slowed down. It's drizzling outside now...

For a moment, I come to remember the thoughts that had happened just now were all the flashback from the past, which had dwelt deep inside my mind for a long time. To my surprise, I still can remember them all very clearly!

I really don't know how long I've been wandering. It astonished me of how well those memories came at just like that while I'm in the state of silence in mind, and in the quiet time.

And, what truly amazed me is that those old times memories are nearly 20 years ago now...

The moment I realising it, I stunned!